Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.

2008-07-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

i've been battling with my inner emotions for a long long time. but one thing which jem said and i totally agree? to just be happy in life. really guys. it's worth the shot and the long run. no point worrying so much and we shld sometimes just go with the flow.

well school's starting.let's be happy.=)

2008-06-11T15:17:00.002+08:00

This happened outside Orchard MRT.

Phone rings.

Me: Hello.
XH: HeLLO. HELLO.HELLO.
ME.HELLO HELLO HELLO.

Phone gets disconnected.

1 min later
Phone rings.

Me:HELLO
XH: HELLO HELLO HELLO
Me: HELLO HELLO HELLO!!!

Phone gets disconnected.

1min later
Phone rings:

Me: Hello
XH:HELLO!!!CAN YOU HEAR ME ANOT!
ME: YA I CAN!
XH:THEN WHY U SAY HELLO SO MANY TIMES...

-.- for a moment i tot my phone was spoilt and i was beginning to feel disappointed at my N95 but turns out we could both hear each other talking.sigh. lol.miscommunications.

anyways i've thoroughly enjoyed myself last night. i was tired and aching in my calfs but of cos i was thrilled.=)

Got to do something abt my STM. ANYONE?hmmmm=(

2008-06-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

I was watching the last episode of Rouge and they were concluding on a two part series of MARS Vs VENUS. Yes Men Vs Women. Lol.

I find it abit interesting as usual being the inquisitive person i am that guys don't do most stuff that women expect them to but i'm different?lol. I dunno. It's nt up to me to comment. but basically they were debating about why men like to hog the remote control and channel surf or why men don't like to talk while watching tv or why men don't like to listen to complains......etc.etc

LOL.ok the three special guests on the show were Patricia Mok, Michelle Cheong, and Ivy Sing and ALL THREE agreed that no one like to hear ppl complain and Patricia Mok had this to say : Girls Don't complain.lol. Well Personally i have to disagree with that. At least give the ladies some time man. then again most of you will complain that they already have more talk time. but then again it's nt like we need to fight for the spotlight right? So just LISTEN! =)

I fell ill and recovered. got drilled for the wrong purposes and did some damages but what the heck i'll come back stronger. i shan't think of it anymore.wells have a wonderful week ahead !=)

2008-05-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU =) *smiles gleefully*

2008-05-20T23:33:00.001+08:00

I wonder........ and i'm still wondering....can a pain be healed? what about time? does it do wonders?
I wonder.......

Things which you said almost brought a tear to me but i can't. i have to be strong. i'm sorry....

2008-01-01T13:28:00.000+08:00

okay HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! 2007 has passed and another year has just arrived. Thinking back on the year that just passed really makes you kindle those memories again. Just last night i was at huini's house with jo, yy, min, dan and peizhi celebrating the new year. We were talking about our sec school days and those days always never fail to bring a smile to our faces. all the stupid things we did, the naughty stuff we did and the never ending punishments we are always getting ourselves into. It was absolutely hilarious i tell you! We had a bomb of a time. Anyhows i'm glad we are still in contact. most ppl would have lost contact by now but we are still always gathering for gatherings! haha.

May this year be a year full of blessings and prosperity for everyone around! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-12-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

hello you fellow earthians! haha. I'm back let's do an update. I went to sembawang to run with cherissa but due to her niggling knee injury we had to walk the last quarter to the beach. the fellowship is great considering i'm new to the cell group and it gives me a chance to get to know her better. anyways her family treated me to lunch and her mum was super nice la! when the rest of the members heard this they were like stunned. PS I'm no auntie killer okay! hahaha

Headed down to cher's place to do the christmas souvenirs after soccer at ECP. It was fun la with all the talk cock and the failed productions. haha. At the end we manage to complete it with an efficient team that consists of zhiwei, jo, cher, kelvin, paul and myself! hahaha. we all hope the new friends will like it. I was packing my table just now and i came across the brochure for my graduating class. i know i blogged about this some time ago but then the memories just don't fade. The quotes in there by some of the teachers are really touching. i personally feel that sometimes we just take things for granted. Are we really just Hi and Bye friends? do we have a bond? Sometimes we say we'll keep in contact but then we have other commitments to tend to also. Please make an effort.

oh wells look on the bright side! life's not as difficult as we make it out to be!=) photos will be up shortly!= )

2007-12-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

THE FINISHED PRODUCT!

The Soup in Process

The Spaghetti

MY LOVABLE SISTER!

I'm so happy! hahaha. i just did my first cooking today!!!! wooo! courtesy of my youngest sister who gave me the instructions while i did the cooking. she helped with the soup! hahaha. I cooked AGLIO OLIO. Its a kind of spaghetti with cooked with olive oil, chili padi, anchovies and garlic. There's no sauce just olive oil. woo! tasted fantabulous! hahaha. I didn't know cooking was so fun la. i'm going to experiment! ahhaha.

I went for my CT scan today and for those who are asking what's a CT scan, its those scan you see on Chinese drama serials whereby the actor or actress gets a tumour in their brains and have to go for that kind of scan. the kind you lie on the table and the table goes through a big hole with RADIATION!!!!! haha. okay if you can imagine then good if not then go to any hospital and ask for a picture. haha. THe results are only out later so i can't tell if my jaw's not aligned properly or if my saliva gland is swollen! on the other hand thank you God for the blessings in my life; for the holiday trip that happened and that my expenses were covered also for the wonderful friends i have in my life and also for me to know the cell group. Please continue to watch over me and my friends and continue to bless us. Amen!

2007-12-09T09:09:00.000+08:00

okay i'm back from sydney already and here is part 1 of the pictures. I have to wait for my uncle to send me the Part 2 before i can show you all but anyhows sydney was F-U-N, and by that i mean fun fun and more fun. It was quite a relaxing trip away from office and when i went back to work the next day my friends said i had a relaxed look so haha. i enjoyed it. I kinda dread returning back to office the next day. Its like i just want to ORD there and then and not have anything to do with office again. haha. but wells life's not always created to out likes or dislikes.

I did my first surf there! haha. My uncle was very nice to organise a surfing lesson for the whole gang and then i manage to catch some waves myself. hahaha. Initially the process was tiring and i kept falling, well the adults did and the kids were better than us la!!! But that's also cause they had a lower centre of gravity and can stay stable on the board longer! hahaha. but towards the end i manage to stand all the way to the end (which means coastline) haha and i was satisfied! The view is fantabulous and those beach houses overlooking the wonderful white beaches were magnificent i tell you. It was so impressive that my uncle has even considered going there to stay. The four days i stayed over at the beach house before moving to the city was sin sin and more sin la. haha. though i went running on the beach but then at the end of the day we'll be digging into loads of red meat la! and if you can see in the pictures the meat is huge! and as usual i'm the 'dustbin'. lol. after that we went to the city and then it was shopping. went over to chinatown and my God, the WANTON is friggin huge!!!! like a fifty cent coin tripled its size. haha. but it was good la. Overall good food good wine and good trip!!!

anyways the trip is over nd the time has come to work again. booo........ went out with Jo on thursday to catch the long awaited enchanted. NICE! sweet and romance. 3 out of 5 stars! :) had a big catchup and then we went home at abt 11 plus. late! haha. but i had fun. CHRISTMAS IS COMING! so stop whatever you're doing and take our your wallets! buy me presents okay!!!! Ask me for my wishlist! hahahah( yet to create one though) :)

2007-11-24T09:14:00.000+08:00

Its really amazing how time flies in an instant like that. It happens especially so in army when you go outfield for four days and then at the end of it you know your week is almost up. Just like that 2 years of our lives serving the nation will pass by like that. Ever thought what it would be like for a normal civilian like yourselves? indulging in everyday stuff and routine- waking up, going to the school or to work, studying/working, then back to home and yet not knowing when the precious moment to seize or to grab will pass you by cause commoners like us are always complaining how long it is for the week to pass but if you stop to think and seat down and observe life, you'll find alot more to appreciate. so take a break and have a kit kat. start showing a little more love to the ppl around you. Ask them out, ask abt their days and how they are coping. a little smile can do wonders.=)

Praise the Lord!

2007-11-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

okay nothing much happened during the week. i was outfield. i brought back loads of clothes. i had to do the washing twice. and i got heat rash. pretty much sums up everything la. haha. another 4 days outfield next week before i head for my holiday in australia! On holiday.....

Dear Lord i pray for those having exams right now in that your wisdom and knowledge be with them and i pray for them to remember everything they studied and thus helping them get through this difficult time. Lord i also would like to pray for people who are falling or have fallen sick to recover as soon as possible and be on their way again. In Jesus name i pray, Amen! =)

2007-11-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

Spastic-ness at its highest!

The gang who went to UBIN
He said he's skinny and asked me to post the photo. I think so too. =)

an eventful week an eventful weekend. First up there was cycling at ubin with jo, huaymin, huini, del and dan whereby we travelled all the way to chek jawa. Not a bad place to escape to if you're finding peace and serenity. Then after that we went to watch THE GAME PLAN at marina square. Its not a bad movie and i would recommend watching. inspiration and touching.

Del asked me to publish this. This was the conversation between me and him at Carl's juniors

Del: " you yao bei ma le" (because so happen i always scold him each time he gives an idea)
Me: "don't be so negative can"
Del: *shakes head*

Then they continued talking. Until i interrupted....

Me: Delvin, Delvin, ( with a piec of french fry in my hand)
Del: what?
Me: you bring joy to me.
Del: *looks at me with a flabbergasted face*

and so the scene of me feeding him continued until he said i think u scold me better. okay internal joke.

Anyways he really lost alot of weight as he embarks on his NS life. I hope you'll become fitter! look to ur 12/12!!!

Hope deferred makes the heart sick - Proverbs 13:12
always believe in what you want and you'll achieve it. =)

Lucks to those taking exams and still in the webs of studying.

Oh ya before i forgot to write. If those of you who has free time please go and take a look at connie talbot. She's the sweetest voice i ever hear and to think she's only 6 freaking years of age!!! take a look its on youtube! i still tear everytime i watch her video though i already watched it 3 times? haha

2007-11-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

THE SPECIAL ONES!

LOOK AT THE FREAKING FOAM! I HAD TO DRINK IT ALL LOR!

okay time for a proper update. Haven't been at home for the past week due to me having to conduct lessons for my trainees. Mentally and physically draining man. Scolding them and cracking your brains to come up with creative punishments just to keep them on their toes. I tell you i finally understand how a teacher's life is. Its the same lest the green clothing u put over and the regimentation. but then again what more can be said when you see them graduate and take on responsibilities in life. nothing will beat that.

Anyhows i had a great 20th last weekend. I met up with yy, jo, daniel, huaymin and huini for lunch at the BOTAN restaurant at far east square. Its NEAR TO CHINATOWN and TANJONG PAGAR that's why we were ABLE to walk from the purple line to the green line! haha. but anyhows good jap food and cheap. spent abt 20 per person. so a good recommendation! Got a wallet from them from Braun and Bruffels. Its also time i had a change in wallet la. but heys THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL TIME!

My hamstring's still not yet fully recovered yet but i want to run! its been sometime since i last did a long distance run already! sembawang beach anyone?!?!?!?!?!

Each time i am embraced by you i feel peaceful.=)

2007-10-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

okay birthday's over! i'm 20 but i don't look 20 so yea. I must say this year has been quite a busy one for me, meeting ppl all over the place. army pals, Charlize, Mum, Jo, yy, huaymin, daniel, huini, CG. busy busy busy. But first let me just say THANKS to all those who wished, to those who contributed in the card writing and the gifts! love them!

Many wishes many hopes many visions. I hope GOD has my life planned out and guides me along as i take each step forward in my life. Thank you JO for being the coordinator of this year's birthday. Thanks. you're a blessing! just like the rest of you. LOVES =)

2007-10-25T15:35:00.001+08:00

its time i had a change. FRESH! =)

2007-10-25T14:56:00.000+08:00

okay time for a proper entry. I'm on leave today and tmr and was on leave on monday so technically this week was a two day work week for me. The understudys have come in already so i think its really time for us to take a back seat with all the hard work we put in the last six months. So now when the boss isn't in office we'll just walk around, surf friendster and facebook and then continue to do somemore walking around. If we get hit by the famous ALS ( after lunch syndrome) then we'll say that the day was pretty shagged and thus we'll hit the bunk. haha. Pretty much like chalet? with XBOX and TV to accompany us? i'll say yes!

Unfortunately my boss is coming back tmr so the honeymoon ends. haha. But oh wells it was fun while it lasted. Seriously people go read some books if you're bored or that's what yikying tells me to everytime i complain to her about me being bored. haha. To keep myself occupied, i went to try out the SAF video game. Its like counterstrike just that its a game created by the SAF to help soldiers make better battle tactics. And thus voila! you've found another reason to stay away from office. haha.

Anyways here's a birthday wish to all the october babies!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALI!

2007-10-22T01:46:00.000+08:00

Running makes me feel so at ease especially so if you end your run at the beach. Its the ultimate experience. I just came back from the long run down to punggol end and i must say i never appreciated running so much. It was peaceful. I wanted to take in the scenic view of punggol beach but the freaking mosquitoes were quite a handful. They stung me FOUR TIMES!!!!! GRRR. I was just sitting there thinking when i noticed my hand was getting itchy and there's a bump. So my mood was ruined and i turned back to run to the main road. But i don't mind goin there again. Would you?

I've been peaceful with myself this few days partly cause of GOD but also cause i have friends who care. I hope you find peace with yourself too and do stay strong!

2007-10-11T11:34:00.000+08:00

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's Empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I've got a peice of paper
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying to hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

Oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh.

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty
(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying to hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're Empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're Empty

Feeling shitty right now. GRR! didn't go so well as i expected but oh wells what the hell. Try better next time. at least i don't have to wait that long for the next slot. but FUCK la! Angsty! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

2007-10-05T11:38:00.000+08:00

One last time.

as usual i'm bumming my arse off at home when i'm not working. Too poor to go out so i'll just bum at home lor. Caught an episode of yu le bai fen bai yesterday and i tell you it was super hilarous can! with Zhang hui mei singing out of tune due to the two clowns acting there. haha. but wells. Driving is in a week and as the days get closer i hope i can pass!. woo!

Haven had much activity in the past few weeks particularly due to me being busi with outfield exercises and office work. i stayed in camp for one whole week can! not even coming home once until i had to spent an entire afternoon with my mum to redeem myself. haha. what makes up a memory? days spent together or fun you had with the personnel involved? either way it helps us remember the days spent in the past and let us reminise the times. I can't help feeling sad for my friends who got posted to another unit and because they are so close to getting ORD it makes it harder to digest. But as the saying goes life goes on. Its the working world so we just have to swallow. all the best folks!

2007-09-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Many ppl have been complaining about me not updating and thus they have stopped visiting my blog. Even those who do visit don't leave a comment because i didn't update and they just go away. how sad yes but life's like that. When you're busy and you need to rush your assignments therefore you don't have time to update.

I had to do duty on Sunday and usually duties on sunday will be slack one because 1) no one is in camp 2) you get to surf internet 3) its peaceful unless your DSO ( duty staff officer- cpt and above) is a damn irritating guy. It so happened that my DSO was the most disliked officer ever and he gave me hell even though i wasn't the complex duty officer which means to handle guards. anyways most of you reading won't even understand but just bear with me. haha. He kept on scolding me about some awol guy and the details. ahhh heck la. Anyways that was the start of a bad week for me.

Just like how i had been complaining about bosses being irritating mine got on my back in the week. I dunno man just feel weird la. Sorry man i had a thing for blogging just now. but now it just died! haha. Morale is low in the office with 6 of my friends getting posted to OCS as instructors. Bond we have but its the memories that will be missed. Due to some shortage over at OCS, they are requesting instructors from artillery side. I mean what's an arty officer going to do teaching infantry stuff??!?!??! double whammy man. Now i only can cherish what we went through together. you guys have made my days in artillery institute a more enriching one. thanks.

Now there you go my update for the week! just not feeling too good but i'll be back. Met 90% of the darlinks for lunch just now. Good but can be better. Del's out of camp and he's telling me he lost 2kg. keep working it! =)

2007-09-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

Just came back from driving. Three more weeks before i go and take my test. Quite excited at the prospect of passing it first time. i really hope i can. well when the day comes pray for me okay?

Played zhong ji mi ma with my boss and friends yesterday just to see who gets the last cup of yogurt because no one wants to eat. haha. i laughed until my stomach pain i tell you! He got the cup in the end and kept on telling us to give him discount by eating half and then playing another round. haha. serves him right for bringing me up to thailand. In case you didn't know since that day, We have been at loggerheads over this issue. haha. i walk past his table with angry eyes everyday. I think i'm really the most naughtiest 2LT around. haha. oh wells, life would be so boring if i were to follow the norm and just accept their bullying right? so actually i'm quite a bundle of joy.

Off today and tmr but i need to get my documents signed before next week. damn BIG BOSS keeps on procrastinating and because of that i may have to go back tmr just to get it signed. argh! i think i shall go for a swim today. anyone care to join?=)

2007-09-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!! recovered from stomach flu and i'm back to my usual self. caught me off guard also. On Monday i was feeling better and i had a lesson for the artillery specs, i found myself going back to the scolding ways that i treat trainees with. The ways of the nasty instructor giving heaps of pressure of the poor guy. And SAF is moving towards a 3G army? with Learning Organisation and everything i don't think there'll be much use left for me man. I was brought up by punishments and scoldings and then now they are going soft on them. ARMY HAS GONE SOFT like so many people say.

Anyhows my boss says i'm naughty who always retorts to him. haha. whatever man!

Apologize-One Republic & Timberland

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah yeah

I loved you with the fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoa.....

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off...

2007-09-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

argh! i can't stand it. being cooped up at home the whole day is boring! i miss my friends, i miss the air outside, i miss shopping!!! man! I miss goin out!!! was diagnosed with the stomach flu this afternoon after procrastinating on visiting the doctor and in case you didn't know i hate the doctors because each time you go, you'll get bombed by loads and loads of medicine which is a pain i tell you! GRRR. but sigh i missing all the action. SOMEBODY SAVE ME?

My sisters were super sweet last night. kept on fussing over me. haha. youngest one was like " eh kor got take temperature?" then i said no need la with my eyes closing already. Then she said " no must take i got temperature! " then she goes and find. then after finding out that i have a slight fever she just wished me goodnight while the younger one was like asking me to go see a doc the next day and kept on asking if i was feeling better. I'm touched la! haha. people who care about you.

Pray i get well soon will ya?

2007-09-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

my tummy hurts.... i wonder what's wrong. gastric? appendicitis or whatever. well attended daniel's pop on wed. Bloody bugger never even call to tell us the details or evn invite us and i left office early just for u leh. this kind of brother where to find one. haha. oh wells had my tummy growling for nearly 2 hours before we went down to punggol to find delvin. wells it was nice to see all of them again. girls became prettier guys became machoer and delvin became.....haha. but wells all the best bro. u're goin in soon!

2007-09-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

I tell you arh! i'm a man filled with angst! first my boss tells me to go sit on it but then what happens? he gives me false hope. WTH? explains the reason to me then in the end i still have to go like RARRRR!R!JHRHHRHR!! i tell you life's really unfair man. but on the lighter side i managed to catch up with yikying daniel and josephine on sun and it was a good ketchup I want more of those and less of office time. I pray that my ORD comes earlier so that i can leave all unhappy memories behind. anyways i'm goin to thailand for a third time next year just to fulfill their policy of having a senior instructor go up. sigh. Daniel's POPPING tommorow and i hope to see him with the rest. everyone's mostly turning up so another group gathering! ARGH! Internet connection is fuking slow also. I told walter that if i were to have my driving test tmr i'll drive with rage. *morales been low*

2007-09-01T11:38:00.000+08:00

okay i'm bored. rotting my ass at home. on the other hand i'm almost broke this month. got to wait until next week then i can spend but then i'm goin to the IT fair later to buy myself a printer and an external harddisk and i've yet to pay my phone bill so that equals to not good which equals to more money being spent. haix.

Went out on a catchup session with JB DAN DEL ZIFU where we spent a freaking 27 buckeroos on steamboat which was only so so only. like what the hell. fark man. waste my farking time and money but well as they all say its not the price but the catchup.

pictures from the outing with j and j. =) priceless..haha

2007-08-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

MAN OH SHITTY SHIT! I got called old quite a number of times already! Its not like i wasn't called old before but come on I'm only 20!!! haha. i was out on monday and i walked past some booth when this shitty looking guy flashed a card in my face and said 'want a makeover?' WTH rite? haha. then just now when i boarded the taxi the taxi driver asked if i was a reservist attending RT! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IMPLIES! HUH HUH HUH! HAHA. Firstly he's saying that i'm OLD! secondly he's saying that i'm not fit! DAMN. argh. fucking society, haha

OKay on to work updates. nth much just goofing around in office and making entertaining yourself then you'll find time passes by much quicker. but other than that I MISS MY FRIENDS. I MISS DARLINKS! I MISS JJ I MISS EVERYONE. man i must have a wishlist already man! haha.

Anyways happy birthday SHARLEEN AND JOANNA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2007-08-27T09:42:00.000+08:00

What defines a person? Is it the character in him or the achievements he has? i think its alil bit of both. I had my first 21km yesterday and i must say it was quite enjoyable. amidst all the crampings and numbing of ur legs i thought it was a fairly good run. to start running at 530 when most of you are sleeping away under the covers of comfort is quite daunting. Imagine the time when i have to wake up (i.e 300) but alls forgotten when you cross the finishing line and you know you completed a half marathon. Next up the 42km!

I came home and got knocked out all the way till dinner. that's how tired i was. suffered cramps from the 18km mark and started stretching every km until the last 500m. haha. oh wells if you guys are irked by the thought of running that long i think maybe you should just come for a run. It'll be quite fun. =)

2007-08-25T08:35:00.000+08:00

Justina complained i got no photos on my blog and my blog is so emo and since she hates emo stuff i think i shall comply with her. haha. these are pictures from my thailand trip whereby the junior officers have our own time away from the big shits and politics. In short fun. haha. Just to emphasise the point, the third picture in the first row is act a pic of a rainbow. squint if u must.haha.

I went to have ketchup and everything nice with the two girlies yesterday and i think it was a good session with the fact that everyone was tired from work though they were ONLY doing admin work! haha. go and exercise and not walk 6km okay! not good for body. so cannot take part in the saucony 10km run if u can't. =p anyhows hope to meet you guys soon again! -loves-

2007-08-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Caused no one else cared
after my dreaming
i woke with this fear
what i'm done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some
reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what i made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
but neither have you
so if you're asking me i want you to know

Forgetting all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are.

Went to MOS with army pals and cherri's company. It was quite a fun time considering how long i've not been there already. enjoyed but felt bad for kenny. Dude i hope everything's goin to turn out fine for you. 5 years is a long long time. I don't know what or how to feel anymore.I want the feeling but i've got no chance. Will you pick me up?

2007-08-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

first up i left office early w/o my boss' approval and as i was leaving camp he came back and saw us. Then he made some noise. and thus guilty.

Next up my ex boss called me up and accused me of accusing him wrongly and teaching the wrong stuff which i'll have to clarify tmr. sigh. It just sucks.

2007-08-09T17:31:00.000+08:00

back from thailand and i must say it has really opened my eyes to the world. What with all the office politics and all. never knew you would actually experience it out in the field. There's a limit to everything but all's over. At the end of the day it'll be all smiles. Mistakes must be learned and you'll learn that life's not a bed of roses. Well i wouldn't say that i enjoyed this trip though its one major step to me getting out of army life and back to studying but hey man it needn't have to be so bad rite? To top it off, the freaking military thai service is so bad that they cannot even accomodate us for a few more hours thus we were left stranded and with our heavy legs we drag our weary bodies back to the camp where we spent an extra day. What's up with that man. Just when we tot that the C130 would take off we receive news that the airport (KPS) closers at 5 and they cannot wait. So we had to freaking travel all the way back to camp and stayed there. DAMN FREAKING PISSING. but fuck that i'm back home in singapore and for the first time in a year i'm seeing the whole family again. Sacrifices will have to be made but i don't mind.

2007-07-18T08:51:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to feel anymore whether being a distant figure helps or being there but heys life's like that. Sometimes it goes up sometimes it goes down. In life we all want what's best for us and sometimes that will even spur someone to go on a killing spree or go all out to achieve it but i don't feel it. What hurt's the most.................

on a lighter note, Here's the conversation between my boss and my friends.

Boss: 0 and 5 were talking then 5 got pissed with 0 and chased him into the forest
*meanwhile we were looking at him at bewilderment because its not everyday he tells a joke*
Boss: but when 5 went into the forest he only saw 8 reading a newspaper and started beating up 8 instead.Why?
Friends: Because its made up of 2 zeros?
Boss: 5 said don't think you wear a belt i won't know who you are!
haha. lame but its very seldom ur boss does that.

While i'm away in thailand don't miss me okay? i'll miss everyone in singapore! 4 times i'm goin to be sitting a military plane in a year. haha. okay wish me luck ppl!=)

2007-07-08T10:25:00.000+08:00

As requested, i shall type a new post. haha. I guess its about time to have some updates been nearly two weeks i supposed. Went out to celebrate kaiwei's belated birthday yesterday and it was quite a bash. I started the day feeling moody and i ended it abit better. Thanks to all you wonderful friends out there and also to yikying for talking to me. Thanks.=) Have you ever wondered how life unravels itself and the path for you is always ever changing? How life has its obstacles purposely placed on a certain position in your path so that you'll be able to learn from it?
Think about it.

Aside from that my life has been pretty mundane just that instead of staying in at home i stay in camp and face the computer doing office work whole day/week/month. so really nothing much and i'll be flying off to thailand soon! woo! one more step closer to ORD! PINK IC PINK IC PINK IC PINK IC!hahaha. peace out!

What you value you will defend.

2007-06-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

TO MS HO YIKYING YOU SHOULD STOP STEREOTYPING NS GUYS! we are nice people okay! just because of some bad eggs you shouldn't condemn the rest! haha. but actually come to think of it u've got a point la. There are too many around for you to not stereotype so i supposed you are right in SOME SENSE! haha.

Went to kura no naka to celebrate joycie's bdae and i tell you it was a huge letoff. Food quality was there but prices were so dang ex and in the end we paid a couple of buckeroos to just leave the place feeling hungry. well i was just trying out what the net had to say. oh wells. :( pictures pictures pictures please!.

Sometimes while you serve your liability things which make you touched and reemphasizes the fact that NS forms the strongest bonds is because you go through shit together and when you are down with the depression bug, your buddies will come and light up your life again. Just like how mine buddies did. I was feeling shitty yesterday when they went out for dinner and when they came back they just came into my room and ate their food and talk and laugh. I felt much better than and i now know why most guys would want to sign on. It was almost as if when i was a cadet and i was sitting under the stars with my buds and talking about what's going on in our lives. its the camaraderie that can't be found elsewhere.

-out-

2007-06-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

(I miss them man.=))

(If you have seen my friendster, this is the hot girl i met at phuture.=) haha.)

If you have been reading my blog you would have notice that its become of a dark piece of artwork? and not only that, my last post was like how looooooong ago! that's why i'm back here to update and bring you the chronicles of the life of Stanwin Siow.

Went to phuture last week with jus, ben, jo, ant and angela to celebrate just's 20th birthday and it was kick ass fun man. We ran into SH's grp there and it doubled the fun. haha. In short we just had fun fun fun. Ben was there to just drink and drink while ant was there to just be on the dancefloor for a while before hitting his car. haha. anyhows here's wishing JUSTINA a wonderful belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY. =) *thought that counts*

The week went by with me going outfield and suffering less slp than i can imagine. Loads happened right from the start. Guns broke down halfway along the road, vehicles broke down and the story continues. haha. i was deployed to go and recover the trainee's fieldpacks at about 1 plus but i had to wait for the other vehicle to come back to camp at abt 430am!!! so In the meantime tried to get some sleep but to no avail! FREAKING 2 hours of rest only can. hahaha. My team was dying! I came back while settling the stores i fell aslp la. hahaha. like anywhere also can fall asleep. Just shows the amount of slp i lack.

Went to MOS last night. Music was so so but company was fun!haha. I think i need to cut down and focus my energy elsewhere? hahaha. but thanks for the company- caiwen and her friends.
next clubbing goal? ST JAMES powerhouse. but its so far out of the way. Makes us have loads of inertia in goin there. See how la. -outs-

2007-06-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

What defines happiness? 1.the quality or state of being happy. (quoted from dictionary.com) am i? or is everyone just traveliing with a facade? SAd to say i rushed back from JB to find out more saddening stuff. At that point of time i suddenly see a different group. Facade all round the table. Its really saddening and i finally understood yikying's point of view. " you shi ren zhou tai hao ye shi bu hao".

i don't wish to face it i don't wish it to be true but i do hope its not.

First time at del mar and i must say it absolutely rawks!haha. Went sun tanning with ms kelly tan and the atmosphere there is superb for chilling la too bad its on the sunny island thus abit out of the way but wells i'll welcome a second trip there. haha. next time if i do visit i'll post pictures. for now i'm goin to just enjoy life as it is. try as many stuff as i can. i want to study!

2007-05-30T01:33:00.000+08:00

When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

It speaks volumes of what i'm feeling.......i'm begining to understand and feel the different ways of life. the only way is to improve and not be a air bomb. -outs-

2007-05-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

I can't help feeling shitty at the situation i'm in. I want to improve but really do my words carry any weight? In this world we live in, ppl believe what they see. No proof and something nasty comes out of their mouths. That's the sad truth. There's alot of wants i want to do but can i?Will time allow me? Can i have the ability to turn back time so that i can do some changes. After today's match i really felt dam low and its time to do something about it if i were to carry out those changes. I really feel i can't promise anyone lest hurting them in the process. sigh. God please help me. I'm really at a loss.

Someone please take me away........

2007-05-20T13:30:00.000+08:00

got shot in the heart.

2007-05-19T13:29:00.000+08:00

Haven been able to come home since monday or tuesday i can't remember due to me finishing work late in office. Now as i'm commissioned as an officer of the singapore armed forces, i find myself being more exposed to working life. Like what my senior says, don't take it as arrowing but more of an exposure. I'm actually taking it so positively that i kinda enjoy doing what i'm doing or supposed to do.haha. kinda rare when we are talking abt mindef and its organisation. Its just that its gets a lil irritating when ppl dun tell you what they need properly and then they tell you at the eleventh hour and gives you the excuse, " HUH? i didn't tell you meh? i tot i told you???" and then u'll just have to roll your eyes and get on with it. It's a fucked up organization la. So for those young men out there my advice don't sign unless you really have the passion for it. trust me. the world is not as sheltered as you think it is.

Anyhows here's to yikying and kaiwei, regardless of what happen, i would like you guys to not take it upon urself. We all need time and we are still learning the way in our life as we start to grow and mature and handle the outside world. Your efforts are appreciated and though we may not be showing it correctly but i assure you all we are all touched and appreciative.Changes are inevitable and its only a matter of time before we all reach the same levelling.

I wish you well.......................................

2007-05-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

lessons can always be learnt be it whereever you are and sometimes it can even come in the form of a visual context. I'm back from brunei and i must say this time up there i really had my experience. not only was i forced to handle heat injury cases, bee stings, harbouring on a dead log, and get bitten by the irritating sandflies and leeches i had an eye opener into how the world is unfolding and how we all react to it.

i've always wondered what i'll do if the unexpected happens? Will my instinct to love and protect kick in or will i learn it the hard way? Since my cadet days i've always found it a difficulty in getting myself to move and overcome that inertia in helping others when i'm in a physically exhausted mood and when my trainee said something to me on the climb up biang i just couldnt bring myself to face my reflection.

Me: why do u guys have the energy to move even though you are all physically exhausted?

Trainee: Well i guess its just the thought that even if its a lil for thing which u can do for him that makes him nearer to acheiving his goal will make you happy. Even if your help is rendered useless at least you know that you tried to do something.

We each have our own life journey and as it unfolds itself before us, we might get pleasantly surprised or we might even delve into the depths of depression but in the end all of these will just be a memory and the main focus would thus be on your present situation and how you make the best out of it. I would really love to see this batch of cadets commissioning with pride and receiving them when they throw their peak caps. To them i salute for their bravery and courage throughout their lives.

2007-04-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

' Its really tough in the army ' honestly i find this piece of sentence a whole load of bull. Not after even a second lieutenant can have limited powers in administering punishments. Seriously i dun find myself in the wrong and what he told me about making them not do it for a day, i find it a bit of a bullshit after all they are still cadets and what more they are a playful bunch and might even smoke you. thanks for bringing me to reality that commanders of ur stature believes in such welfare that might backfire. Its about time the red tape be cut down in the army giving ppl much freedom.

This sucks. day by day i find my life in office a lil more draggy. When u finish ur work early and ask for ppl help and they reject u, u'll find urself idling at one corner with many dagger eyes aiming at you and tongues ready to wag. that kind of feeling sucks.hells at the end of the day by holding on to that grudge, will it bring u an extra slice of happiness or extra wad of cash?I'm still discovering my life journey. help me find out more.

2007-04-21T12:25:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed man! shit happens! i was supposed to go for driving lesson today and i had everything planned out alr but then i was supposed to go back to camp to conduct a test for the cadets. okay that was already factored in. then my boss said that we would end by 1030 so i tot a driving lesson at 12 wouldn't be a problem but it ended at 11 so i was kinda rushing already with beads of perspiration running down my forehead and me walking briskly with all the cramps in my body.haha. looks like a constipated duck but then i went back to office and then i asked my upperstudy whether we had anything on then he said my boss wanted to do a debrief so i no choice had to cancel lorh. then when everyone came back my boss said we'll do the debrief another time. walao. make me cancel. sadded.

anyhows i was the duty instructor yesterday and we were staying back at camp to celebrate a couple of my friends birthday with food from differing hawker centres and i was surfing the I-net in my office and i happen to be at charlize's blog and while i was scrolling down, my Sir sneaked up on me and said "what u doin arh? surfing porn arh" then i just said " Erm sir reading blogs la." then at that moment i was scrolling down this post on how charlize got skin allergy on her leg then i looked at him and he gave me that weird look. then he said "that looks like porn to me" then i just stared at him dumbfounded.hahaha. i mean a normal pornographic video would normally show the legs first to define the sexiness of the film followed by the rest of the vid so that's why my CPT thought so. things we do when the office is empty. haha

Someone pls drag my ass out of this emo shit i'm goin thru. i need to be jovial! HELP! hahaha

2007-04-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

Better Than Me
(HINDER)

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

sad song and it kinda makes you emo.shucks.
been bogged down by work lately
arrows shooting all around in office
but seriously its the same as outside just less regimental, i remember i said something like that last time round. I really really miss studying man. Let's hope everything turns out as planned on sat. pls dun let me chase cars.......... God i miss my sister man!!!!!

2007-04-15T15:22:00.000+08:00

CNY! (Long overdue i know....)
Commissioning ball! =)
CNY Dinner. =)
Thailand.

Okay! these photos are long overdue as you can see. that's because i've been too lazy to do anything about my blog until recently which i suddenly found a magnificent ounce of energy to overcome the inertia to do anything. hahaha. so i decided to look through my albums and fish out these pictures and do them a picasa style so yep there you go.

Charlize brought me to MOS last night and i think it was a wonderful night minus the stinky, smoky, no room atmosphere which basically covers everything there is. haha. Met up with Darren and eugene ( the two cocksters according to charlize) hahaha. but on the whole it was good. company was good, drinks were not bad, food was so so. so yea i would say my night was quite fulfilling. haha.seriously guys i did enjoy myself. SO MS CHARLIZE THANK YOU! =)

2007-04-14T14:54:00.000+08:00

feeling damn lethargic after my duty yesterday probably because i couldn't freaking sleep last night. damn the army.haha. i always find that i cannot slp properly in army camps even when i'm not in duty. somehow or rather i would always find myself waking up at weird hours and then telling myself that i have to get to slp if not i won't have energy for the next day. for those who are still oblivious yesterday was friday the 13 and me being the DOO on that day is freaking suay la. somehow with how the day unfolded i had a feeling that i had to do a check on the furthest block in my camp and true enough i found an isac card lying around and if security checks were to be done i will kena. This followed after my camp's network shut itself down not creating an opportunity for 'hardworking' ppl like me to finish up on their work. hurhur.

Driving wise i think i'm beginning to enjoy it not that i didn't like it in the first place just that i think today i was a total disappointment. damn. hahaha. we were driving along ubi and about to make the right turn then i stalled!!!1 STALLLEED!!! when cars were zooming by.hahha.a got a scowl from the instructor. i think i'm a reckless driver la while turning i was kinda accelerating at a fast speed and the instructor made noises again la.haha. nevermind next time treat him to a cup of coffee. yahoo! next lesson on a monday! progressing! yay!!!!

*my body yearns for the knuckles of a massage therapist* quick bring me to one!!!

2007-04-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

This blog has been long covered with cobwebs dustwebs and what not and that's why i'm here to put in a post and entertain those 'lovely' ppl who have been diligently reading my blog.i have my sword case waiting for me to open and embrace it but yet i chose to write a post on my blog. how dedicated man. hur hur. * arghS* i'm irritated!

Yesterday while i was outfield with the cadets, i received a msg saying one of my friend had passed away. It may seem like a prank to those playful buggers out there but alas it wasn't to be. After confirmation from qinghui i suddenly just got lost in my thoughts. from being energetic and enthusiastic to being moody and not in the mood but i had to face my cadets and so the big facade comes up again. but seriously its kinda depressing knowing a fellow friend who attended the same primary and secondary school as you suddenly left because of some irresponsibility on the road. The images just kept replaying in my mind as to how this unfortunate event was heaped onto her and unfolded just like that. i have no words for this just pure sympathy for her loved ones and may god help her reach the divine level which everyone so desires and be peaceful. may you rest in peace my friend.

went to kee meng's invitation to watch his easter celebration at expo and i must say it was a pretty good drama just that the translation spoilt it and got me kinda irritated but the msg was damn meaningful. but i'm still very skeptical about things.haha. tired dirty rashes all over i think i need a rest!

2007-03-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

I've Been Living With a Shadow Overhead
I've Been Sleeping With a Cloud Above my Bed
I've Been Lonely For So Long
Trapped In the Past I Just Can't Seem To Move On

I've Been hiding All my hopes and dreams away
Just in Case i ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All i want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oh Oh Oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
i know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere.

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And i'm open to your suggestions
-Way Back Into Love- Hugh Grant

Such a lovely song. Since i've passed out i've gotten more freedom and time which i tell u are priceless. I know now what do they mean when they say u've got to treasure ur time. JOycelyn has enlisted and i think she'll do well because she has this lovely positive aura around her and with that she can overcome anything. Be strong girl. Its only two weeks! WE'll MISS YOU!

pls let it be i have discovered what i wanted to discover and also let me know what to do. =)

2007-03-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

The memories of my parade are actually still flowing vivdly inside my mind. right from the start to me almost falling down as i miss a step and also to me throwing the peak cap. Yesterday officially marks the end of my trainee days. From now on not only do i have to shoulder more responsibilities but also think about the bigger picture. Right on the parade square yesterday i started to think about how army does wonders to you though it can be quite F tubbed at times but on the whole i think its a pretty good thing. The times when ur training was tough and then when there's a rest period u'll start to sit and think about the precious ppl in ur life whether u'll really lay down ur life for them or not. after all its not a show but a real life case.Being commissioned as an officer definitely puts more responsiblity on you but it also changes ur perception of life. but that's the later part. RIght now i think the attention should be the parade it self.hahahahaha.

Like i said i almost fell off the stairs and can you imagine hordes of parents were watching. How embarrassing can?!?!?!?!??!,.hahaha. Right when i came in all formed up i was trying to search for ppl i invited and sadly i only managed to find two.hahaha.because the rest were seated so far away but thanks to the magnificent yy i smiled! hahaha. Thus breaking my stylo image. ( quoted from her) hahahaha. but yea i was super happy to see all of them. Definitely a definin moment in my life. I can tell u the feeling of throwing that peak cap up in the air can never be compared to anything. Its like me winning the champs league and whatevver tournament i'm in.Thanks to those who came and to those who congratulated. I love all of you! =) Stan's a happy man.

2007-02-18T10:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! Its chu yi and i'm blogging! how sad my life is??? May you all go around with smiles brimming with confidence and excitement and collect as many red packets as u can! hahaha. GONG XI FA CAI

Longing for that special feeling

2007-02-16T18:09:00.000+08:00

The last round before being loaded

Some of the stuff we do when we have no missions! (Shaving)

Rear shot of the gun.

A gun firing.

BAckdrop of thailand.

I'm back! thailand was fun to a certain extent and that i got to experience how an artillery weapon fires. To those who dunno artillery here means DA PAO and i got a chance to fire a round. I tell you it was friggin shiok, the blast that came out from the gun caught me by surprise especially so when i was firing at a higher charge. ( means my blast felt would be stronger). I took pictures some secretly when i was supposed to be doing my job but as the saying goes, if u don't get caught anything goes. hahaha.

On valentines i was busily trying to earn some money from the mahjong table but to no avail. I lost $4 la. boo! but nonetheless my other khakis were there and that was enough. haha. i was pleasantly happy. Thanks!=)

Had my ACPC ( Arty cert presentation ceremony) on thurs and it was kinda pleasing because we finally got our ranks that we slog for. Though we can't wear it yet but the mere sight of it makes us all grin in satisfaction. You should have been there man.once we open our little red boxes, our lips all curled up in unision!haha.

i told this to someone before abt how i sometimes feel isolated from the rest of my friends because i'm the first to go in? in a way when u're free they are not and when they are u are in camp. So no matter how u look at it, the odds are against you but then again, yy said that in future it'll be all back to square one. That's true but the ball's in my court and i have to make the effort to keep up. I suppose that's how life is. Sometimes u have to find the answer urself. whatever it is, i still love my friends. They are a part of me that cannot be replaced esp the darlinks. =)

2007-01-27T10:39:00.000+08:00

Some say love it is a river

That drowns the tender reed.

Some say love it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger

An endless, aching need

I say love it is a flower,

And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's the dream afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying

That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long.

And you think that love is only

For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed that with the sun's love,

In the spring, becomes the rose.

Westlife's the rose.

I find this song quite meaningful and its actually one of my favourite songs.I do believe every flower will bloom beautifully with sincerity and honesty just like how any treasured thing u have. With delicate care and concern the thing that you treasure will last a long time. Less than 24 hours before i fly off to thailand for my finale ex and i wish to see my darlinks forge thru their individual FYPs and then graduate with the satisfaction of having tried their best. I;ll be awaiting for your uncontainable screams of joy! =) I was telling qinghui yesterday that i believe our friendship and bond can never be explained to others because we have this special rs with each other and though there were times when the clique was abt to fall apart but then how can we bear to? Friendship should not be tested too often if not there won't be any joyous ending and to put in a little bit of effort from each individual is equivalent to one big step for DARLINKS. so let's all come in tgt for a big hug alrite? SHARE THE LOVE.

PS: I brought the darlinks card to thailand! =) MOTIVATION!

2007-01-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

nothing beats having the excitement and the elation of watching ur favourite team beat one of the top teams in the premier league. haha. i tell u i'm super uber happy now la!!!! at the end of 90 mins the scoreline read: Liv 2 Che 0! woohoo! its been sometime and i guessed we waited long enough already. well done guys well done supporters. To those non soccer fans out there, u all must be wondering why am i so jubilated over sth so small and why am i celebrating as if i've won the lottery? haha. but i guess it can't really be helped can it? soccer fanatics are like that and that's how we enjoy the game. with PASSION!

sth out of soccer, i had my second cohesion day at sentosa yesterday and we were supposed to play the amazing race at the sunny island yet my team unfortunately finished second last. We were super unlucky la. firstly, the challenges we drew were from north to south and back to north again that kind of thing. Then in a series of unfortunate events we tot we could get a headstart on the second phase by using an evil card to swop places with one of the teams but then they turned on us and used a block card. -_- dam and in the end we came in second last. Forcing us to gulp down a 'cocktail' made by the instructors. Picture this: century egg plus quail eggs plus some kind of milk. Mix them all tgt and you'll get a smell not worth smelling and a taste that gives u the puking sensation. YUCKS i tell you. haha. but it was quite fun la. i think if it were a game of getting girl's numbers i wuld have gotten tons because i was the only active one in my grp.plus my good fren yuan shen otherwise i would be bored to death. Why is it when i want to really have fun there must always be some other group of ppl that spoils the fun by just not wanting to do anything and not caring. Life's like that so we just got to live it?i wonder how they'll be received in future............

2007-01-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice
saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I don't never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel (And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

*Hinders-lips of an angel* *sobs*

2007-01-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

one hour before i have to leave the comforts of my home and trade them for the not so well off khatib camp. Seriously i think the only thing that i'll be looking forward to when i reach the camp is my bed because the camp is quite run down because artillery is an old formation and thus the influx of cash is not quite what most of us would expect. anyways i've decided to add a new post partially because my blog was getting stagnent and with many ppl around putting off writing their blogs for these particular period because of final yr reports and stuff, i think i should contribute to the blogging world because like that ppl will not die of boredom when surfing thru the blogging world.

anyways went gyming today at california fitness at bugis. I decided to go over there because i've got free gym sessions until feb 28 because i cancelled myy membership in dec and since i signed up in march last yr i got free sessions till the 28! yipee! haha. after that i met my favourites at hougang plaza for a meal of western food! I tell you the food there was superb man esp my grilled fish. They had three quite big slices of fish and it was tenderlicious i tell you. Their baked beans is not like the regular Singapore Food Industries baked beans which can make you empty ur stomach after eating them.haha. you must be laughing at why i'll talk abt the quality of the baked beans because urs truly had experienced them before. oh whatever!

The long awaited chat finally came up during dinner and though tears were shed but i thought this chat was rather worth it.Because at least now we have identified the problems and so work on it lorh. Sometimes it just becomes better when you say the bitter truth right infront of their faces. Furthermore my younger sisters just proved that they have matured and i can now confidently say that if they were to live alone they would survive. i'm proud of them! As for him to earn our respect, I truly hope he can do it. *fingers crossed* I think i have to step up and regain my foothold on some aspects of my life. We have come to the point of our lives whereby we have to make the decisions and be responsible for them, wells i will find myself getting more vocal over the next few weeks ba. and last but not the least here's wishing MS YIKYING- my friend, my darlink starter, a member of my favourites an early happy birthday just so in case next week i dun get a chance to blog.

Yikying: heys girl dun worry u're still young at heart and i'm sure u'll be a the heart of certain things from now on because more responsiblities will befall on you. Just so you know, the darlinks are always a call away and if u can't handle it let us crazy bunch of friends help you out! *winks*

2006-12-25T10:10:00.000+08:00

things i do for fun!
hm, me, yy, and dan the man at hougang plaza pool. can u imagine four person sitting on the bence and playing a game which i do not noe the name but we had fun! :D
TCC!!!! WOO!
me and val- always a call away! haha *winksjoyce and me. ( I think i'm kinda enjoying these moments =p) haha.
jo and me. a tad of brotherly/sisterly love? nah loads of it!
me and my beloved organiser who got caught in the mix up process innocently! ur prescence is the greatest present to the darlinks! we will never be one w/o u! :D:D
time for individual shots! me and buddy!

brownies and muffins made by yy- full of sweetness and love!
the weather is hot so we must drink water!=x
a mix up of presents? =p
Me, dan, qh, kw with our presents respectively!

It was a fun night out at the coffee club where the darlinks turned up in their utmost glam to celebrate the annual christmas spirit! These are the pals where i really enjoy and as u can see from the above photos i think its also where i do some stupid actions too.hahaha. price of a 7 yr friendship? priceless. memories which we gathered tgt will never be taken away and that's a cherished moment. one by one we all grow up and start to assume heavier responsibilities which i admit sometimes does feel a tad too heavy but the 11 of us will definitely stand by each other through thick and thin! DARLINKS I LOVE YOU ALL! THanks!

2006-12-23T08:30:00.000+08:00

A gift from yikying! thanks girl!haha. i love it!

MY NEW CASIO EXLIM Z60!!!hahhaa. time to take pictures!

2006-12-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

well it did ended tonight and i think its what best for both of us. you agreed that it was at an impasse and so i decided to take that decision. well i was kinda bothered abt it for awhile but i think the more logical way was to take that path. may you be blessed and hope u'll be able to find happiness elsewhere. meanwhile i'll just concentrate on army and getting commissioned! =)
i'll appreciate times when we had our moments lauging and just having fun. take care my friend......

2006-12-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

I met up with Jo and Yikying yest for prata at Jalan kayu and it was a well worth wait!haha. We had great times chatting and catching up esp with yikying because she just came back from shanghai! she's getting old.=p hahaha. Sometimes it just takes that little bit of effort to make someone happy and u'll never know what wonders that might do. Think about it for a moment, there are many ppl out there who would jump for joy just at the sight of a t-shirt which we just put it over our body day in day out without realising the importance of it. No moment is ordinary do cherish what you have now for if you do not there's a possibility of regret later on. just some food for thought. Meanwhile i'm goin to upload more photos! haha. This time pictures of me getting my blue beret after a tough 10 weeks of training.

2006-11-26T08:21:00.000+08:00

I was just going through the photos in my lappy and i found some to share with u guys. pictures on my hopes and aspirations and also abit on my family. been lazy to type so i'm uploading pictures instead. weekly updates!hahahaha Presenting to you my dearest cousin who shares the same age as me and has almost the same results as me. SOme has even said we look like a couple! lolx!
THe big group of girlies in my family with me and my other cousin the rare guys in the circle. Imagine the noise we have to put up with the chatterboxes. wahaha.
A car i will have someday! VISUALISE IT!
Buddy of 6 mths and counting. Never fails to lighten up ur day. AN avid runner and a sports freak!
My Pilot dream! woo! Imagine a bmw and a pilot. Man they do match! ahahaha
After scaling up a very steep ravine and suffering slips and cuts along the way we finally found our checkpoint! nicely taken photo but after the camera was shifted we all look like ppl from the dead. hahahaha

2006-11-21T11:46:00.000+08:00

My buddy Kharul ......(Bangalore Torpedo---HIGHLY EXPLOSIVE)
Some of the things we do in the army. Aint it a piece of artwork? haha
ME in the strike form! CAMO CREAM ON!
A bunch of guys who just got teargassed by the instructors! look at our constipated faces!

2006-11-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a week since i last updated partly cause i only came back from camp on sun as i had my exercise MILO- an exercise that was planned for us to call for fire from the mortar platoon. It was fun on one hand but after our session ended all we did was just sit around and rot. There was practically alot of waiting time and thus made it boring in the process.haha.i think the only exercise where the cadets will have more fun would be the safari one because that is when we'll get our blue berets. moreover it also signifies us being one step closer to being commissioned!...woo! ahhaa.

met up with huini yesterday for dinner it was highly refreshing after not seeing her for such a long time. I realised too that she for one has matured alot not only in her thinking but also in the way she portrays herself. Compared to the days where she was in cvss, i'm seeing a totally different her now. I can say throughout the night i thoroughly enjoyed myself talking to her and also knowing her better. Most of us homosapiens have a story to tell be it a happy one or a sad one. but one thing's for sure is that behind that stoic face of us lies another person. huini told me her tale and i was quite taken aback because i never knew her to have such problems, but the way she's goin to face it really showed me what sort of character she has. She has such strong character in her and i belive the light will show her the way.

There are obstacles in our lives which we have to fight in order to achieve what we want to achieve. but without focusing on what we want to achieve we won't ever get it. WHAT WE THINK AND WHAT WE FEEL AND WHAT MANIFESTS ALWAYS MATCH! got that off from some movie called the secret. I think it make sense because i believe in it. you should too. I need more pictures for my blog and damn blogger always loads so slow.

2006-11-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

The Aftermath of climbing MOUNT BIANG! haha. Cooking combat rations in brunei!

Post birthday celebrations jointly hosted by qinghui! Thanks darlinks! though it wasn't quite happening but i enjoyed every moment of it. Meeting them makes me smile again! I miss SOCCER! boo!

2006-11-04T19:13:00.000+08:00

social night activities.more pics to come. gtg! ciaoz1

2006-10-29T10:23:00.000+08:00

things you do when you're bored!hahaha. anyways i've changed my template cos its been way too long since i last did a makeover. I miss goin out with alot of ppl esp my close friends. It's as if army has taken away ur freedom.haha.To a certain extent it is la but to another extent it gives us that sense of camaraderie that i'm sure all of us longs for. I still rem the days before my enlistment and that i was brimming with ebullience about how good army is and how exciting it is to get enlisted but i guess that has died down.Army will always be a neccessity and i believe it shld stay irregardeless of what. Why am i talking about such stuff when i can talk about others?haha. Argh i'm so bored!!! save me! Oh yea caught deathnote yesterday and i would say its a very good movie with enough suspense yet with an added twist so go catch it if you have the time not that u don't already noe but just a gentle reminder.haha. I think i'll go watch some tv to kill my boredom!argh! ciaoz!

2006-10-24T10:53:00.000+08:00

I was just doing my regular workout when it struck me why do NS men complain so much abt NS life when u look at it from another perspective its actually the same as outside working life jsut that NS is more physically demanding. As we mature more responsibilities will start to fall on us regardless of whether we like it or not. Its something which we cannot escape from. I was thinking abt that because i've come to discover that i'm not that into NS life now esp after my posting into ARTY. Its not that i dun like arty or whatsoever but its the environment there that's putting me off and the people that's in my course are also quite F**** up so yea its anybody's guess why i'm so sianz.

Just came back from brunei training. Its a really good experience to have climbed up and down Mount biang and to rush all the way to the crossing point just to get back to camp one day earlier and also the bonds which we forged along the way because to scale the mountain we had to help each other up and the slopes aren't exactly gentle.haha.Then there was the incident of cooking up on the mountain where we had a sumptious meal tgt. Though its tough i realised i could do things which i neva thought i could do before.Its just about conjuring that special something in you. All these time while i was in brunei the haze in Singapore was getting bad and the PSI reached unhealthy levels at night.Highest was 170 which was what caused my flight to be delayed. I had to stay in brunei for two extra days just cos my flight couldn't take off in singapore. Imagine this, u want to get back to singapore quickly and thus you finish ur mission faster and successfully but then u found out that ur flight cannot take off how would u feel then. I tell u while we were housed at the JAC camp during the extra two days, it was a picture of old folks waiting to die and their visiting hours got restricted. That's how sad we were.haha.

but anyways i came back and hence i'm waiting to book in in like less than 12 hours time.haha. Mum made her decision already and has since taken action but only time will tell whether she will regret the decision anot. She said three years but personally i feel that she wouldn't be able to take it and might spring a surprise after a year? its anybody's guess. It seems like there's no amicable solution between those two but i'm still hoping for the best i guess. SHe asked me whether i was stressed by all these i told her, I don't have time to be thinking abt all these and its true cos if i do allow myself to think there will be a whole load of things to think abt! Right now i think i'm just looking forward to my ORD date. frens out there pls do come and date me on my weekends cos i'm just too bored!haha. anyways ciaoz!

* its not goin to be anyone that's stopping you from your goal but yourself because u're the one that makes it happen!*

2006-08-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

Its been a while and i think my blog's dead.haha.Decided to do an update since i've nothing to do now after lazyin ard the house.I was so tired after the run this mornin that i came back and knocked out for two straight hours.haha.Its quite an unbelievable feat considering that my body works on a 12 hour shift now and the bare minimum that i am entitled to is 7 hours of slp per day.Anyhows i feel there's a need to update this blog and to let my friends have an update on me too so here goes.

Went out with the darlinks (minus the two guys and girls) on friday night and i really enjoyed myself.They brought me to mindcafe and that's where we had games snacks and loads of laughter.haha.Photos to be uploaded when i do get them (so ms ho yikying..........) haha. Each time i go back into my bunk feeling all tired and down i'll would look at their pictures and lift myself up cos you won't know what's the meaning of treasure till u lost the one thing that u care. I always get a happy feeling each time i look at their photos, and it pushes me on to fight for them. I would and i will cos they are the ones i love.

Ran a 10km marathon run in the morning and i totally enjoyed it.The bonding with my platoon mates and the jokes and laughter we all share.Its amazing how we can not be sick of each other having being in each other's company for one week and yet we can still meet up on weekends.This kind of camaderie cannot be found anywhere because we are the ones thats been through thick and thin tgt.Some might say that i've a very strong bond with a certain person but touch ur heart and ask urself whether its really a strong bond anot?It might be on the outside but on the inside, we could be crumbling down.think abt it. We'll only know the true meaning of each other's existence only after the prescence is gone.sad but true.

random thoughts random answers, will we find out what we're searching for? who knows!

2006-06-18T02:50:00.000+08:00

gotten my posting and i'm actually very happy with it but i somehow feel for my other platoon mates.they've gotten a vocation which some of them don't quite like it while some do but on the whole i have to agree that the system is screwed.oh wells that's life i guess.have been trying to refocus myself to army life again after that one week break which is refreshing yet somehow i miss the army life cos without army i'll be getting fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha.Reporting's on monday!wish me luck!

She said something to me about wat she was told and i had to control my emotions to console her.I can't see her breaking down infront of me and i can't bear to see her in a tulmultous state cos of some ppl but yet i can't do anything due to the army commitments i have and some other stuff.I do hope we can continue and hopefully a solution can be worked out.right now i can't bear to think of other things cos if not i'll fail in army and i do not want that.I'm sorry i can;t be there with you when u're suffering but i'm there with u not only in soul bt in heart.DO hang in there and perservere ok?for now i think i'm logging out!ciaoz!

2006-06-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

The euphoria of POP has or is starting to die down so its time to get back to business and time to refocus for my new unit.Hope i'll get into OCS.fingers crossed posting results on friday.Anyways decided to post a picture of my botak head since ms mei jieying asked me to post.I'll be honoured to do it.haha.Nth much has been goin on since i began my block leave and i miss my platoon mates!Its like we spent the past two months goin thru hell and all those route marches tgt yet we'll definitely get posted to different units.Wonder if we'll ever meet up again.sighs.Got my first two gundam models and completed the mastergrade version.I'm goin to start a collection and hopefully next time i can sell it for millions.haha.aren't i dreaming, but i think its possible.

There my botak head!

had a dinner function today and i had to accompany my dad or he'll feel damn awkward answering all those qns on why aren't they here and stuff.Sometimes i feel sorry for him and that's the reason why i went.My sisters don't go or don't bother to let alone my mum cos we didn't really have a good exp with the Siows thus the animosity.i dunno whether i shld feel glad or happy or wat when he said Thanks for coming with me just now.It just didn't sink in until much much later.sighs.......needa go rest.tmr tennis with peewee!!!

2006-06-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

Two months of BMT ended yesterday as i had my graduation parade and took loads of photos!It didn't really struck me until a few moments after the whole thing ended cos i tot it was still a freaking rehearsal.haha.Seeing those empty bunks and thinking back on those times we got punished and got through it together really made me feel sad.Its like as if yesterday i got just enlisted and i POPed today.We started out as chao recruits and now tgt as one we are PRIVATES.I'll definitely remember those times when we got punished and those times when we laughed our hearts out, it was certainly fun being with u guys.Do take care and i wish u all the best in wherever u go.They say the best times of ur mililtary life are in Tekong and i wholeheartedly support that, so to guys who are goin in, pls do enjoy ur bmtc life cos u'll neva find another place of bonding again.Here come the tough times!

The SunSet as i was walking out of Tekong for the last time.Don't u think it just fits the picture?

My platoon mates with my COMPANY SERGEANT MAJOR

Platoon mates with my PC and my sect com

Section mates with my section commander and my PC

my DAd and my lovable Sis

My buddy throughout my 9 weeks in BMT!

getting ready to throw our caps!

my sister!

Dad and I..Don't we look alike?hahahaha

can u spot me?

2006-06-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

three more days to POP and to becoming a private.After those gruelling route marches, field camps, sit test, live range live grenade throwing, i believe i have grown stronger both physically and mentally.My pull ups have increased since i went in.Compared to lasst time when i was struggling with 4 or 5 i can do 6 easily now or maybe 8 depends on my technique.Well army really teaches u how to cherish those around you and those not around you.right now i'm on sick leave which i hardly take throughout my 9 weeks in tekong.( to date its the first mc) my body has finally broken down after pushing myself for quite some time.I'm pretty pleased with my performance at least that's the bare minimum i expect of myself.

Many predicted that we will not bond cos we did not have the two weeks confinement period but i beg to differ after that gruelling week in which i had a stand by FBO and a stand by area and a stand by bed after all the BCCTs the SOCs and the arms drill, i can tell u my platoon has grown, matured and has stuck tgt in times of difficulties.These are the guys that will stick with u throughout and i am definitely goin to miss them.my tenure in BMTC is goin to end and i'm already missing it.Tougher times are to be expected when i get posted to units and hopefully i'll get into command school.I want to be challenged and excel and lead and take my mental and physical state up another level!

Block leave's coming up and i do hope that i don't have to do a re-24km route march if not i'll be damn sianz.Fancy going back to tekong when u've already passed out and march around the school 12 times in ur FBO attire.Its killing me softly man.haha.Army life though its quite fun but i do miss my darlinks and my outside life but its an obligation i have to fulfill.miss a couple of darlinks bday celebrations and base on what yikying wrote i bet they had loads of fun.anyways Happy bday to DELVIN DANIEL AND PEIZHI! Cheerios!

2006-05-21T13:56:00.000+08:00

due to the overwhelming response (i would consider three as overwhelming) to update i shall update.Been really lazy to update since i got enlisted and here i am with two more weeks before i graduate from tekong and hope to get into command school.Army's life not that tough at all its just physically draining and mentally tiring.haha.But u'll definitely enjoy the best times of ur army life there.Outside of training time i do miss my darlinks, her, and my family but its for a good cause-to make their lives peaceful while i defend them from enemies.( abit cliche here)haha.

I dun even noe wat to update since most of the time that revolves ard me includes wearing a camoflage uniform,applying camoflage cream,washing clothes etc etc.It would get kinda boring after a while.To D3 i hope u'll not be heartbroken over what he said, he is a real bastard for saying such stuffs.I despise him just like the other darlinks i believe.Well hope u find ur real happiness soon! ;)

2006-04-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

i shall make this my 100th post before i go in for army!hahaha.

I can't even have some peace before i go in and what shocked me the most was when i discovered something else.the tinge of regret was there when he attacked her and i did not do anything but watch but after that i gave him a piece of my mind.Frustrations and anger do boil over but i seriously condemn ur actions and if the inevitable were to happen i'll still choose her.Too bad.U proclaim to be ur lil innocent self and do quixotically things for the better but how come i dun see a change in ur lifestyle?I can promise you that i won't just stand and watch anymore.The next time u do it, i'll move.MOVE MOVE MOVE.

Army soon and darlinks will be there to see me off.THey are really the nicesest ppl around and are really like wat yy said, the greatest bunch of friends.I'll miss everyone connected with me and i hope things go smoothly for u guys!=)

2006-04-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was one of the best days that i've spent with the darlinks as they gathered to send me off to army.We might have our ups and downs and perhaps sometimes we do not see eye to eye but nonetheless we are still darlinks and those tulmultous times are designed to make us grow from strength to strength.I LOVE YOU DARLINKS!!

I would most probably be in a snit right now if my parents were to stay at home all day cos they don't seem to be acquiescing well with each other.Its always tit for tat and not give and take.Honestly mum, its really driving all of us nuts.But i guess u noe wat to do and the ultimate decision still lies on you.I've alr told u guys wat i wanted to say alr.Its not geneveive's lecturing nor its grandma's.ITs purely words from my heart.and dad, u're not to be let off lightly too.I must say the majority of this recurring problem actually lies with you.You keep on defending yourself and try to pull urself out of the quicksand but actually can't u see it keeps on backfiring cos of what u did and what u're doing currently.I noe how u feel cos i've actually been there and done that so i kinda sympathise with you but u've got to help me to help you.If not there'll be no progress at all!Just come to a conclusion quick so that everyone can move on and return to the peace and serenity like before.

Anyways on to happier stuffs.Went for sakae buffet yest and i ate until my stomach looked like the stomach of moses lim.It was seriously that big.haha.but it was enjoyable on the whole and i was really touched when they turned up.Esp for the fact that most of them took off from their attachment just to attend this gathering.After that we had a lil discussion and decided to head over to our dear yikying's house for choc fondue and a game of mahjong!yikying could have gone bonkers i tell you.COs i kept on sneaking in to have a taste of the fondue.BUT U CAN'T BLAME ME!THE FONDUE WAS INDEED DELICIOUS!hahaha.eating her fondue was certainly revivifying after all that sushi.hahaha.HAd lunch with mum today and it was absolutely D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!haha.we had jap food and raw sushi!!!hahaha.wells got to scoot.cya man!The next time i blog could be a long long time!

2006-04-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

It really is an eventful month or so since i've started work at hwi yoh CC and i must say that it really opened up my eyes to things that can happen in the service sector.There can be loads of difficult customers to handle and we must have the right attitude in approaching the situation.By being at the cc i've managed to gain valuable experienced and change the way i look at things.I'll definitely miss everyone there from MS Pauline, Jimmy, Aunty Jacee, Ms Tan, Ms Phua,Mdm Ong, and colleagues who worked with me before.( Jia wei, Nurul, Kai li and those other temp staff)Thanks for all the treats and the jokes for if without them i believe my working experience would be a very dull one.To pei er and the rest of the sups, It has been fun working with the three of you.Do keep in contact and let's meet up for tea someday!haha.Thanks everyone!

2 more days before i have to shave my head bald and start saying YES SIR NO SIR and having to listen to commands like "DROP 20!".hahaha.that's all and till i come back PLS TAG ME!hahahaha

2006-03-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

THe days when i was young.Now i no longer happen to possess that handsome and cute face anymore and that's saddening.haha.On top My sisters and I from Oldest To youngest (BAck To Front).Bottom, Me during Primary 5!!!

2006-03-20T12:26:00.000+08:00

You said that you'll only want companionship and not anything else but i beg to differ.Pretty soon it'll be a case of getting upset and feeling depressed all over again.I seriously am very tired of how the both of you are treating each other.I've already stated my view and i hope for a positive response from the both of you.

Army's coming and i actually want it to come earlier so that i can concentrate on training instead of filling my head with lots of sadness.You guys might say i'm a vacillated person and that i have a soft heart but what's the point of keeping me as a true friend when i'm always the last to get notified and if i dun state my point i dun think u'll ever tell me so what's the point may i ask?Can't you just acquiesce without giving bullshit like 'Its hard to express', 'you won't understand one', 'its a long story' and other bullness.If u dun tell me how would i be able to grasp what's troubling you and even understand it?If you dun update me then who will?So pls stop saying that my 'computer's lagging' and other nonsense.I've had enough of it.The reason why i'm keeping quiet is because i'm an easy going person but if you push me over my limit i promise you i won't be nice.

Went running around my estate yesterday and it was a welcome relief for me.I think i should do that more often to escape the clutches of the sad thoughts?Nah i'm not a quitter!haha.Rubbish?i think so too.partys coming up to mark the end of my civilian life(ffor the time being) and the start of my two year army life and i hope i wuld be able to attend both(my aunts and the darlinks)cos both mean alot to me.anyways work has been pretty much the same except that i'm getting treated.On sat while walking back from my dinner break i saw a person throwing a pouch out of a moving car or so i tot that was how it was.Initially i tot it was a tyre and i wanted to do the public a good deed by pushing it to the side, but upon closer inspection i saw that it was a pouch and i actually tot that could be a bomb.haha.But with that thought in my head i still proceeded to picked it up.hahaha.Funny man.Wat if it was actually a bomb?haha.Wouldn't i be dead?hahaha.ANyways the pouch contained a japanese passport, handphone, address book and his working card.I wonder where can that guy go without his essentials.haha maybe be a vagabond.haha.ciaos!

2006-03-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

haha.due to ms goh huini asking me to update i shall.wahaha.Went shopping and praying with her today and we certainly had fun 'chatting'.hahaha.Next time must jio her out again.wahaha.Anyways work has been boring and that's why there's nth to blog abt and if u all want to read abt how i help ppl fill up form and get treated by the CC ppl because they strike lottery then i think u're seriously boring.hahaha.

Darlinks hasn't been happy for the past few weeks and i hope everything is fine between them though every gatherings and stuff that are said between them gets to me last.I guess its the norm la cos i was dam busy during my A level period and i sort of lost touch with them but i just hope everyone to be happy.Cheers Guys!

I realised i have a few shopping khakis man.hahahaha.act i think i can shop with everyone la.hahahaha.soccer match tmr hopefully i perform.:D

2006-03-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

rarrrh!!!!!haix.I'm freaking pissed now la.argh!!!!!Being a captain sure has its responsibilities but not everything is decided by the capt wat.CAn't they farking decide for themselves?Is it so hard to open ur mouth and to talk.What's the use of being shy?Does it bring u anywhere?FARK FARK!

Sometimes having a sister around the house is pretty annoying esp when ur sister disobeys and even retorts u?What's their farking problem man.FArking shitheads!?THere are so many questions inside my head which needs some answering and i mean real answers not some bullshit or crappy answers.Like wat kelly said" I don't want the politically correct ans!!!"
haix.What's wrong with me man?I hate this feeling yet on the other hand it makes me even more determined to prove my critics wrong.You said u wuldn'y want to force ppl to do things that they do not like yet u're still looking at me as if i'm the cause of all these.WTF man.I do have a life of my own and i'm not obliged to stick to the same grp of ppl all the time wat.Perhaps i'm just "pmsing" perhaps not but i believe i've been keeping all these things inside of me for a very long time.i seriously hope that u all can grow out of ur shells and see the outer world.We are all 18+ alr and are coming to 19, dun you think its time to be more mature?anyways u guys will still be my greatest bunch of friends.

The above are all random ramblings and shld nt be taken to heart.I just needed a way to vent everything out.I hate the way my sister always climbs over me and i hate her snobbish look but if i have to, i'll do it.I promise myself that.

went running with kelly today and it was quite good.After that i ran all the way home from AMK to serangoon.hahaha.U might say i'm mad or even crazy when i tell u its under the blazing sun but i kinda enjoyed it.It provides a solution to the frustrations in my bloody mind.Life hasn't been good.A level results were not good, my own temper hasn't been good, mood hasn't been good, in short everything la.but i think i shld be alrite after all these.

I shall just escape to the comfort of my bed and my dreams and put on a facade.After all i've done it and i can do it again.OK that's it.Ramblings and ventings are done!Thanks for reading.=)

2006-03-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

2006-02-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

Was goin thru my photos and i happen to stumble across this picture taken a very long time ago.It really brings back memories and how we slack and work hard together.I admit i do miss school now that i've graduated.I miss studying, slacking with frens, playing soccer under the freaking hot sun and also giving various teacher loads of problems.The crappiness and the problems that happened to be in our way and how we manage to overcome it ; how i wish time wuld turn back and not move.I do miss these guys.But life must still move on!hopefully we all go to NS and become a tougher man!Stick together guys!

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2006-02-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

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2006-02-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

Just had a steamboat dinner and i'm freaking full now.If i gorge down any more i'll puke back out.Cny ain't that bad cos i'm on the receiving end of hongbaos.hahahaha.and i get to meet up with my cousins.Funny thing is that now i no longer bear that grudge against them and i'm sort of interacting with them more often.I dunno how long this is goin to last la but i welcome it.=].

Anyways i had a memorable friday evening with my dear and i think i'll rem that evening.Thanks for everything and i thoroughly enjoyed myself with you.Watching the fireworks display was amazing and it just felt so right.After that spent $7.80 goin all the way to sengkang supposedly for a mahjong session but the organiser said he wanted to slp after 3 rounds........hahaha.then i spent another 7 dollars goin back to serangoon to slp again.hahahaha.madness.haix mahjong is killing me softly!!!!

Parents had a quarrel again and i wonder when is my father ever goin to learn.oh wells.i can't really be bothered anymore.i'm sick and tired of all those squabblings and spiteful actions.rarrh!!!i shall go indulge myself in making myself fit.haha.

2006-01-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

Me and JERRY!!!hahaha.

2006-01-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year

Just for this day i've been slogging my ass off doing household chores and repainting the house and yet surprisingly i'm nt that excited abt going through this celebration other than getting angbaos and seeing the cousins whom i don't really talk to.Its pretty hard to communicate when u have 9 girls and only 3 guys in the entire family circle.And if you exclude myself, then that only leaves two.One a seccondary one, the other?A 22 year old who will entertain his girlfriend more.haha.So every family gathering i'll be sitting quietly alone and either fiddling with my handphone to make myself not seem out of sorts.haha.oh wells.

Mum's been a real pain in the ass this past week.Though i've been doing most of the housework she still nag's like there's no tomorrow.How irritating can it be when all you want is some sort of peace yet you get your mum bugging you to do this and do that yet we are powerless to do anything abt it cos as they put it, they are our elders and we should pay respect to them by not rebutting them.Like what deph said on her blog, when they vacuum and mop the house they will most prob leave out my room cos they'll think i'm a guy and i will clean it later.Yet when i do the job i'm supposed to do every inch of the house.Tell me how unfair life can be......

First day of CNY and i must say it went quite well, but i was pretty much exhausted when we were finally done with the visiting and stuff.Went to various temples to and my grandma's house and then came home.I slept for two whole hours without any disturbance!hahahahaha.Oh YA I'VE GOT AN IPAMPER!!!!!hahahaha.Its brand new!!!!my grandma gave it to us then i told my parents i want it in my room and there it goes.hahaha.Cool rite!!!haha.quick envy me!!!.Don't worry i'll share.According to my dad who says that my grandma gave us because my uncle bought alot of massaging stuff for her liao.And After today's visiting, I think they've got every osim product in their house la.hahaha.Damn farnie.

Looking at my dad's forlorn figure from afar really makes me think about his life and how unlucky he can be.haix.He lost his handphone last night and according to his story he said he took it out to check the time and put it back in his pocket and did not take out anymore.Yet his phone was gone when he reached home and his pocket has no holes in it.On the way back after searching, he was scolding himself jinx jinx jinx.It really makes me feel sorry for him and i dunno how is he goin to take it if for one reason or another some other thing crops up.haix.i must say he isn't really blessed and i hope it changes soon.haix.

On a lighter note, I'll show you all how cute my cousin is.hahaha.

2006-01-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

taking a walk down the boat quay/clark quay area really soothes one feeling.Especially when its at abt 530/6 plus and there's a small breeze. It really calms you down and opens up ur thinking.Anyways woke up today by a phone call from recruit express saying they got me a job at 6.50 an hour but its for only one day only.Doing admin stuff at some company called Swiss Reinsurance.haha.Its actually quite slack.You're paid to deliver letters up and down within the three offices.haha.And i get to exercise too.But too bad its only two days.THey extended by one more day on wed.I hope it continues.haha.

A long time since i've blogged.I guess i shld update alil bit more.haha.Usually we always say that by restraining oneself to nt think abt some problem, we are actually running away rather than finding a solution.But when running away helps you to hold on to that hope and nt let u fall into despair then i wuld think alot of us will choose to run away.That's the same with me too.I choose the more cowardly option.You guys may say that i have no guts and watsoeva but i dun care.At the moment i'm taking things as it come.so i'll still be the same old me.haha.

My california fitness gym membership has alr gone down the drain.I signed up that idiotic membership with that idiotic frank and i went for two weeks and i'm lazy.haha.wake up in the morning and travel all the way to bugis.Then sometimes a nice weather pops up.haha.Then i'll be even more stuck in bed.I'm goin broke!HELP!!!Somebody pls intro me a job!Till then I'll see when i'll update again.

2006-01-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

WTH LA!!! A BLOODY FREAKING BEE JUST FLOWN INTO MY ROOM!!!hahaha.at first i was using my laptop and siting at my table then i heard something fly into my room then when i looked up i saw that big fat ugly thing.I even thought it was a beetle at first la and wanted to kill it.then i noticed the yellow stripe and i got scared!hahhaa.so i stared at it for awhile before realising i had to arm myself with a weapon (tennis racquet)hahahaha.Then i wanted to kill it but then i realised that would be a huge mistake as his brothers will come for me!hahaha.then i tried to usher it out of the window but that stubborn old bee just refuses to go. SO afraid of getting stung, i called my mum for help and she's so clever la!hahhaa.she said to use the vacuum to suck and not to kill it as bees bring luck!hahahaha.this was the SECOND time i got into contact with a bee today la!!!the first was at taka's 7 eleven when i was filling up a big gulp then a small bee fly in.WTH la. Why me???hahahhaa.

Anyways went job hunting with dennis and say chong today and i think it was quite a success.Went to china one for the waiter job and i think it pays quite well.hahaha.then we also went to recruit express to get help but i dun think they will be of much help.hahaha.And i've completed my CNY shopping!hahahaha.RED packets woo!hahaha.

SCARy experience man.phew!hahaha.ok off to swim tmr!

2006-01-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

woo!just finished spring cleaning my room!hahahaha.a NEW COAT OF SKY BLUE PAINT!hahahaha.then cleaned up everything.tables, cupboards, vacuum and mop the floor.hahaha.then after CNY my mum says to go get new cupboard new blinds new shelves and maybe somemore new things which i haven thought of yet.hahahaha.my room is lighter now!happier!haha.but before i chose this colour i even thought of a very DARK blue.hahahaha.so that when a thunderstorm comes it'll be even scarier and i kinda like that feeling.hahahaha.i'm weird.hahahaha.

anyways been busy the whole day and now finally i'm sitting half naked in front of the com typing all these out and i haven even bathed!hahahaha.ppl occupying the toilet.haix.alrites.i'm off to bathe!*yucks*

2006-01-08T11:12:00.000+08:00

You you're everything i ever wanted to
Be when you're here with me i just wanna lose
Me in your love that rises to the sun
And says everything i never could think of

In silence we rise and we fall here for today then were gone

But you you'll always be my only real friend
I said you i know you'll always be there 'till the end
They may say i'm holding onto something from the past'
cause they know that nothing in this life will ever last

In silence we rise and we fall here for today then were gone
In the time that we take to look back

These days and these moments have passed

I've been running down the mountain side alone
I've been stuck out in the rain and in the cold
I've been going down lonely streets
I've been climbing up the mountain

'cause you you're everything i ever wanted to
Be when you're here with me i just wanna lose

In silence we rise and we fall here for today then were gone
In the time that we take to look back
These days and these moments have passed
Then we're gone

2005-12-31T11:16:00.000+08:00

burnt, tired and muscles cramping up.all a result of playing too much soccer.haha.yest afternoon sengkang devils had a match with the Singapore Poly team and we should have won if not for the defensive mistakes.but we came back from 3-1 down to draw 3-3 so it was not a bad performance after all.After that they all turned crazy saying want to play street soccer in the evening.my rejection fell on deaf ears and so everyone turned out in the evening.

Came home feeling shagged and after bathing i fell aslp on my bed with the laptop on my lap la.hahahaha.and my mouth opened too.I need to shop!!! DEPHNE LIM where are you!!!!hahahaha.let's meet up really soon ok?

Last day of 2005 and i must say it has been an eventful one for me.some memories are there for keeping while there are some where i can't wait to throw them away and start afresh.Hopefully 2006 will be a better year for everyone and hence here's wishing everyone who's reading my blog a HAPPY NEW YEAR! cheers!

2005-12-27T01:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm....alot of things are starting to float back into my mind and its starting to make me feel on the opposite side of being happy.All along i've been saying that everyone walks around with a mask and my stand on that isn't goin to change soon not after wat i felt on christmas eve......

Sad sad thoughts are floating by and i dun see a stop to it anytime soon not with things turning out at home.Home to me has started to become a very 'cold' place.hardly a single person is at home when day hits and at night everyone just locks themselves in their rooms.haix.

On a lighter note, Sengkang Devils won 5-0 today against my younger sis's church team!and we received a comment from them saying we're very good.*claps claps*hahahaha.i did not perform in the first half but i think i did better in the second though i'm a lil short on fitness.......

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
I've got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As i'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
-Simple Plan-

Life goes on and i mustn't go back on the past and think abt them too.-out-

2005-12-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

Yest went to watch King Kong with dan, del and jb.The movie was nice and touching but it was a tad too long!!!sit until my butt pain.hahha.One girl even cried uncontrollably towards the end.Its really very sad that King Kong had to die.but i wuld say its worth the money la.so go watch it guys!The day before i went out to watch Chronicles of Narnia with anthony. He got a free ticket so i went along. and the show was damn boring!!!!!It was only towards the end that it kinda got exciting with all the fighting and stuff but i have to say the graphics were good la.i'll give it three stars only.To think they are even thinking of making 7 movies of this.Maybe it'll get better.

After that went to attend my regular soccer sessions at sengkang and played till 1130.Afterwards we sat down and talk abt tactics for monday's match and then went to eat and slack and then i ended up at daniel's house and slept at 6!!!Currently the two pigs are still slping while i'm alr up and getting bored.haha.

woke up with a msg from my dad saying we have to take a photo as he already applied for US immigration which if successful will most prob mean a migration to the United States.Why he is doin this leh?Sucks man.Doesn't he realise wat he's putting the kids through.He tried this stuff three years ago and failed so i'm hoping it fails again.Then according to my sister, she said on this christmas eve she woke up to them quarreling again.Sighs.Can't they just give and take????but things are easier said then done la.fark la.

2005-12-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

fuck man!wat a fucking shithead!idiotic asshole.ever wondered wat u did or wat went wrong when u've discovered someone blocked u on msn?i bet all of us have in some way or the other.but not when u've done nothing wrong wat.INJUSTICE!fuck!

Some idiot who owes me money yet block me on msn for i dunno wat kind of reason and still wants me to go down to buona vista and get the money from him.WAt an asshole.hey asshole if u're reading this pls just go and die la.till now i've still haven received any money from him!idiot.

RARHHHRHRRHRH.forget it la.he's not worth so many paragraphs.Anyway today went to watch chronicles of narnia with anthony.he treated me to the movie cos the tickets were free. HIs auntie bought 4 hps and as a complimentary gift singtel gave her free tickets.I must say the storyline is a tad boring and only towards the end did i really sit up and pay attention.on the whole i will give it 3 stars la.haha.but the graphics and characters are cool!hahahaha.Before that had a huge porkrib meal at cafe cartel and up till now i'm still full and i only paid 18.90 for it!hahahaha.very cheap alr leh!hahahaha.and now i'm seriously broke.until some idiot come and repay me i wuld still be broke on christmas.boohoo!haix.not in the best of mood today!ciao!

2005-12-22T10:41:00.000+08:00

Who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
only time

And who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
only time

Who can say
why your heart sighs
as your love flies
only time
And who can say
why your heart cries
when your love lies
only time

Who can say
when the roads meet
that love might be
in your heart
And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps
all your heart

Night keeps all your heart

Who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
only time
And who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
only time

Who knows - only time
Who knows - only time

2005-12-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

ok here i am back updating!haha.woo!been busy recently.wahahaha.First off the chalet pictures are up and its in the links section.Chalet was from 7 dec to 9 dec

Ok the chalet was kinda boring at first with having only the guys in the class turn up for the chalet.the girls?well dunno where they are but they can't attend so oh wells.The first night bbq was kinda a disaster la.With yunxiang doin the cooking and us just caring abt eating.hahaha.And pretty soon i grew fat liao.all those hours at the gym wasted.damn.haha.Then at night the guys (who were all man u fans) haha decided to watch the match MANCHESTER UNITED against BENFICA!hahaha.And i fell aslp while watching.can't help it la too tired liao.hahaha.but but but i woke up to see three goals being scored and in particular 2 against MAN U!!!!!hahahahahha.Inside i was pretty happy but i dared not show it for fear of getting raped.hahahaha.THen the next day we decided to go lan gaming and for non dota fans like me i found it to be a waste of time and a damn sianz activity.Waste my money somemore man.shit.anyways the most exciting part of the chalet which i felt it is came at 12am.Me dennis Sc yx n hero decided to go night cycling and we decided to follow the MRT line but then while goin from pasir ris to tampines we went the wrong way and eneded up goin the longer way.hahaha. THen from tampines the next stop shld be simei but somehow we took a wrong turn and ended up at BEDOK!!!!!we found a shortcut!SO embarrassing lorh.We had to ask for directions to go to Bedok station and when we did we discovered we were cycling the wrong way!hahahhaa.Oh yesh Before the trip i was the first casualty hahahaha.U noe there is a ramp next to the chalet.then there was this gentle slope la.so i tot it was a ramp too and lo and behold i just let my bike roll forward and *CRASH!*hahahha. i found myself lying on the floor with bruises all over.damn.hahaha.Then i had another unfortunate accident.dunno wat i was doin also i never brake while conquering a sharp turn.then almost fell over the railing.hahaha.Then more bruises.Poor me.hahaha.Then from bedok we rode back to taneh merah simei tampines n finally pasir ris.hahaha.Took pictures along the way and it was kinda fun la!haha.Thanks dennis for organising everything.hahaha.Oh ya a word of advice next time if any of u wants to have a bbq pls do not ask GUYS to shop for the food cos there will definitely be an overdose of food and shortage of some impt stuff.hahahaha.Particularly paper plates and forks.hahahaha.

Anyway it was fun.Came home in the afternoon on the 10th then slept for abt half an hour then went out to meet fanzhi to pass him the game then came back home then bought lunch then went out to meet meiy and had dinner with her!WOO!hahahahhaa.Then Stayed home on saturday to rest and recuperate and for the first time in my life i slept for 12 hours!!!!!and i wanted to slp more lorh.can u believe it!!!!!hahahahha.hohohoho.ahahahha.

Went out with deph today to do shopping and it was fun!hahhaa.After getting her stuff and goin to the library to do some survey we decided to head over to the TCC( The Coffee Connoiseur) hahas.try pronouncing the last word.hahahaha.then ordered some stuffs then just sat ard and looked at ppl walking by deciding which were hot and which were not!hahhaa.Then there were this grp of malay guys doing some breakdance and the moves they pulled were like so cooled la.hahahha.Deph who is a flexible girl by nature even said they had flexible bodies la.wahahaha.But the most maluating thing that happened to us was when we called for the bill they told us cannot use nets then the bill was like 14 dollars but i only had 10 with me so i had to run all the way to raffles city shopping centre basement 1 and withdrew money and then run back.hahahaha.While poor deph waited patiently.hahaha.anyway it was fun la.now trying to look for jobs!!!anybody wanna intro me!!!!!pls contact me!hahahha.okies got to go bathe le!cya!

2005-12-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

prom pics are up! but not all of them.but make do with these first la.haha. its in the links section.

Anyway past few days have been shopping with deph and i think we make good shopping partners!hahahahahahaha.tired and broke so someone pls spare me some cash pls???hahaha.NO MONEY!!!!!Saw meiy on mon for lunch and meiy arh i miss you leh!!!!!hahahaha.jiayou for ur work ok?Hang in there! and Deph u also! BALACLAVA leh.hahaha. be brave and dun be intimidated by the lady boss who has a shaggy face and alot of wrikles.haha.Thanks for being a listening ear!haha.

That's abt it ba.tmr goin gym then off to class chalet!hahaha.wooo!!!!lots of food and i'm goin to get fat!

2005-12-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

hahas.been MIA for the past few days cos i was simply too busy!hahahaha.Soccer Shopping for prom gym and finding jobs.hahahaha.so that's why never update lorh.

Prom was fun cos my table won swensen's vouchers!!! worth 20 dollars somemmore lorh.It was like when the lucky draw was being held my table just concentrated on eating only!hahaha.then when they picked the last prize for that segment and said "the prize goes to table no fifty......."hahahaha.then everyone at my table just stopped whatever we were doin and listened.I was abt to stuff a tomato into my mouth alr la.hahaha.Then when table number fifty three was announced, It took us like abt 3 secs to get out of shock and i went up to collect the prize.wahaha.Damn funny.Took alot of pictures and It was fun la.hahahaha.After that went to dennis house to stay with the guys and chatted abt alot of stuffs.hahahaha. In the end i could nt slp as Mr tan yunxiang just kept us all awake with his blabbering.hahahaha.So we ended up wrestling each other and inflicting pain on one another.Went to eat prata in the morning and now i think i'm much fatter!hahahahaha.Got to go more gym!hahhahaa.

AFter that met deph in town to do some shopping with her and she ended up buying the green slipper while i ended up buying a 56 dollars slipper.sobx.but its nice.so i think its worth it cos its a slipper that i think i'll wear it.ahaha.well very tired. muscles aching body is wobbly and i'm shagged!hahahaha. so i think that's all for today!hahahaha.

2005-11-17T10:32:00.000+08:00

decided to do an update today because tmr i'll definitely not be free.hahaha.Tmr's the last day of this impt exam and also signifies my time in Cj has finally come to an end.Most imptly its also a time for us to enjoy and not care abt studies for once!.haha

So far wat i can say abt my papers is that on the whole its ok la.Just freaking pissed with myself on how i screwed up for my math paper 2 n physics paper 1.Cos when u think back n u discovered that u made some stupid mistakes then it really gets to u.My frens took back my math paper 1 and when i saw the paper and the mistakes i made i got so pissed that i tore the paper in anger!hahahaha. The question paper la.Oh wells its over and i shall nt think abt it till next march.haha.

Anyways its just one last paper and i shall go find havoc.haha. and to deph who has been my msn partner during this period haha. thanks for being a listening ear.haha. And for future predictions on exam qns pls find mr Dennis Chia cos he was the one that gave me qns and those exact same qns came out for the As.wahahahaha. Thank YOU!

2005-11-02T06:37:00.000+08:00

Worth the wait!